I was in a car accident yesterday. Me and my daughter were going home from the store on a main road and someone made a U-turn in the left lane causing all the cars behind them to slam on their breaks. The third or fourth car back had the choice of hitting the car in front of him or pulling into my lane and hitting me. He got me.
It could have been a really bad accident. More people could have been hit. Me and my daughter were both on the driver’s side where the collision occurred and could have gotten really hurt, but I believe by God’s grace we were all ok. The other car stopped. We were both very concerned about each other and relieved when everyone was alright. I really believe that God’s mercy and grace took what could have been a really bad circumstance and protected and cared for me, my daughter and the others involved.
I have a confession to make, since my back injury in 2017 It has been very difficult for me to be in a car. I struggle driving not only physically but I have a real fear of an accident about to happen. I can’t drive on the expressway right now because of my foot pain so I often have to rely on my husband to take me places. I am so very anxious during those times. Sometimes I have panic attacks when were near large trucks or someone cuts someone off in front of us. I pray, a lot almost every time I get in the car for protection.
So yesterday God let me get in a car accident. While I was driving on a road that was not the expressway. I think he wanted me to learn two lessons in this. First, that I am not in control. Even when I’m doing everything in my power to keep myself and my passangers and my vehicle safe, I’m not in control. An accident can still happen. I’ve been trying in a backwards way to control the anxiety I have about driving. Only driving short distances, staying off the highway. I avoid driving when my foot is in a lot of pain. These pirameters make sense but I think I’ve had an “I can’t get hurt this way” mindset. My faith shouldn’t be in these rules I’ve made up for myself, they should be in God’s grace.
The second lesson I feel that God had to remind me of is that He has promised already to protect me. You see I am his child and he promises that he will never leave or abandon his children. I pray all the time for protection in the car when I think God is asking me to not just pray but have faith it will happen. I think I was praying so much because I only had faith for one car trip, maybe not only that. God wants me to have faith for everything I ask. His grace is not limited to the car trip I’m on its unlimited grace and I needed that reminder.
There’s a verse in Matthew that was actually in my quiet time today it says, “And when you pray, do not use meaningless repetition as the Gentiles do, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. So do not be like them (Praying as they do) for your Father knows what you need before you ask him.” Matthew 6:7-8 AMP I think I’ve been very repetitious in my prayers lately. I am challenged by this verse and circumstance to have faith and not repeat myself. Which is hard. My children went back to school today. I think I prayed 4 or 5 times since yesterday, God please watch over them and let my youngest have a good day. It’s time for me to stop praying about it and have faith God will take care of them.