And We Wait…

I Will Wait On You, Poem by Kelly Mallasch 

The line doesn’t move, the clock doesn’t tick 

time feels wasted and you stand shifting your weight from foot to foot. 

You have somewhere to be, things to do, places to be, problems to solve, kids to feed, but the line doesn’t move

You stand there, silently waiting. Shopping cart perfectly lined up for unloading

Waiting is hard. 

You wait in line, in traffic, at the store, on your kids, on your husband, on your life, on your promise…until the weight of waiting tires you out, weighs you down

And you still have to wait

Waiting is hard

Your divine appointment hasn’t arrived yet. Your still pregnant with the thought of something big, life changing. The conversations you had with your heavenly Father sound a redundant when.

When will things change? when will I step into my purpose?, when will I heal? when will my life have meaning?  When will they see the big picture? When will I not be alone? When will this line move?

It changes to please, 

please just change things, 

please just heal me, 

please just…move.

And you still have to wait

Waiting is hard

It didn’t rain for 3 years and 6 months. He came and crouched down on the earth, put his hand between his knees and prayed. He then sent his servant to climb to the top of the fertile plain and look. Nothing, He looked again. He saw a blue sky and the waves of the sea.

He looked again, no clouds, a beautiful blue horizon. 

Four more times he walked to the edge and looked at the waves, the blue empty sky, nothing.

On the seventh time he saw it. A small puff of white the size of his hand coming up over the waves. He ran to his master and in a little while the sky grew dark.

How many times will you have to look?

Scanning the surface of your reality hoping for a change, even small.

How long will you hope, expect, anticipate?

Will it be long enough?

 

But those who wait for the Lord 

 Expect,

 look for,

 and hope 

 will gain new strength and renew their power, they will lift up their wings and rise up close to God like eagles ,rising toward the sun.

They will run and not become weary,

 They will walk and not grow tired.

I will wait on you Lord.

I still don’t have a date set for my foot surgery. I have been waiting, rather impatiently for a phone call this past week. This is a new kind of waiting for me. That date is surrounded in fears but I don’t know when it is. I know when I’d like it to be, but as I have to wait longer and longer for it I begin to doubt that it will happen in time. My stress level has been very high this past week as my mind wants to think about all the what if’s surrounding my surgery. There has definitely been a battle going on in my mind to stay calm.

So what do you do to get your mind off the “what if” train? The worry train. That’s something I’ve been studying for a while now. I haven’t come up with the “right” answer just tons of little ideas that all seem to work temporarily. Joyce Meyers says to speak allowed promises of God. She says in her book “Power Thoughts” When you are fearful to say, “I will not live in fear”.  Prayer helps, telling God my worries and then saying, “Ok I’m giving them to you, its yours ,” works too. But I can only derail the train temporarily so It has been a battle for me this past week to stay hopeful.

God does give us instructions on what to do while were waiting. Psalm 130:5 says in the Amplified Version, I wait (patiently) for the Lord, my soul (expectantly) waits, and in his word I do hope.” That sounds like Meyers saying to put your hope in God’s promises to me.

Psalms 27:14 says to wait in confidence and”let your heart take courage, Yes wait for and confidently expect the Lord.”  Lamentations 3:26 encourages us to wait quietly for the Lord. James 5:7 says to wait patiently for the Lord.

I get this picture of an unmovable place in which we are meant to sit and wait. One where worry and anxiety does not phase us just a peaceful, still place. But while were waiting our hearts need to take courage Psalms 27:14 says. So that makes me think that God knew that waiting was hard and that in that waiting we would be so tempted to worry and to have anxiety. So maybe your still and quiet on the outside, unmovable in the belief that God will come but on the inside you are having to “take courage.” Maybe it takes more courage to sit and be patient then to try to figure out how to end the waiting.

Waiting is definitely a time of testing, at least it is for me. I hope its God’s way of growing me a little more so that I am ready when the surgery comes. Do you struggle with waiting? What are some of the things you do to stay patient in the waiting? Leave your comments below.

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